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Dear M,

You are my first valentine date, I really never expected that. I told myself not to repeat the mistake that I have made but I couldn't. Remember before we went out, I kept telling you I'm not playing around but after spending a whole night with you, you really moved me, you changed my mind in just a few hours. Your smile, the way you talk, the way you share are all still clear in my mind.You said you will be back on 20/3 and will celebrate my birthday but where are you now? We just knew and it's just a beginning of our chapter and you have gone disappeared. Your sudden appearance has changed my perception. I know we both have our own limitations to contact or meet but I'm fine because we both are busy people. Is it because of I asked that silly question? I hope you know how I feel. I wasn't questioning your loyalty. Please a word or any reply from you will do. I don't want to be like those who wait stupidly for their lovers. If you think you have made quick decision and you feel regret, just tell me because it's better to tell me earlier than dragging my time and wasting my energy. I have not given up on you. I don't want to disturb u by sending u those texts and getting no reply. I 'd rather see or hear yourself admitting and telling me your answer than waiting zero reply.

                                                                                                                                             Love, I

我回来了

我回来了，我学会了更珍惜自己的风俗，所以决定开始使用华语。虽然华语不是很好，可是至少我在尝试。

     这短短的失踪，我经历了一段不愉快的生活；家庭、爱情和工作。高六后，我没继续深造；成绩也不是很理想，开始真正的进入社会。

 爱情： 不要求它，让它自己来。我经历了一段随时能毁掉我人生的爱。小时候，大人说的对；别相信网络上的人，照片可是假的。我就是那位幸运者。 分手后，各走各的；那是最好，可是他不要。他缠着我不放，欺负我、侮辱我，您知道那种感受吗？！你唯能选择呆在家里，到现在我宁愿工作也不肯出去。因为他好厉害，他认识万人，所以他讲什么，大家都会信他。我想把他删掉可是我不能因为我不想成为像他过去的几位，离开了他几年，依然漂流在他脑海。我不要仇，我只求无，无事就好。

家庭：再继续。。。

Letter

I miss gym. seriously, miss all the crazy training lessons, motivation by my trainer. I hope to get back there asap, hope everything recovers asap. Don't forget me my daddy trainer!!!=)

xoxo
Ivan

Just Can't Get Enough

My aunt just introduced two Vietnamese girls to work as part-time waitress during Chinese New Year. We were all worried because we scared that pervert Bangladesh guy who always thinks he is attractive will disturb these innocent girls. So, we tried to block him to see them but who knew he came out to get some rice( must be some idiots in the kitchen told him ) However, my mum and aunty advised them not to mix with him. Phew! I'm keeping my fingers crossed and praying that these girls won't fall into his trap like my stupid Cambodian maid did. "Hope GODS have eyes" This guy just can't get enough with girls.

'People Reviews'

Alright I said I want to be an active blogger. Let me start off with this

Lakoda Rayne is the topic today.

Lakoda Rayne is a girl band from X FACTOR USA. They came in the competition as solo artist (Paige, Cari, Hayley and Dani) but they only made it to the bootcamp. The judges gave them a lifeline which is put them together as a group . The group performed 'Born This Way' in their first ever performance as a group which was very beautiful and very country version.

1st Performance

Then, it was announced that the newly formed girl band is a finalist. It was obviously for sure that they were going to be a country band when they performed 'Come On Eileen'. They received positive reviews from the first live show like Simon & L.A. Reid said there is a gap in the market for this group and they would be giving a world wide contract.
In the next show, their mentor, Paula Abdul made a mistake by giving a ballad song called 'Landslide' where they were beautifully dressed like prom queen but Simon called them weird and L.A. was confused about their genre in the industry.

Landslide

However, that didn't make them landing into the bottom two until the next week where they performed a country song by Keith Urban. They were saved by the judges and stayed in the competition for another two weeks.
Their last performance on X FACTOR was on THANKSGIVING with their own version of 'You Belong With Me'. They were eliminated as they received the lowest amount of votes.

My thought:
Lakoda Rayne is definitely my favorite to win but I knew they won't go long in this competition as they were "REJECTED" in the girls' category. All four beautiful girls with beautiful voices, where can we find girls like them anymore?

I think Americans made a mistake for not voting for them to stay longer; do we still see country girl band now? I don't think so. These girls have great futures. Besides, I would also like to blame Paula for not being a supportive mentor, we could see her asking the audience to vote for Josh Krajik but did we see her persuading people to vote for her last group in her category?!! We could only see her saying: You are greatful! You made me so proud! You've proven to me! What is wrong with this mentor? I personally like them not only bcoz of the looks but the voices, it's something very unique; or maybe their song choices. I love their performance on the ROCK's week which is a mash up of ''Your Love" / "Go Your Own Way''. They sounded amazing.

Rock's week

I also love their version of 'You Belong With Me' on thanksgiving, it was definitely the simplest covered version of the song. However they were eliminated on that week.

Last performance on X FACTOR

One thing I found out interesting about the group and the show is the week where the judges critiqued them, they were never in the bottom two but the week where the judges praised them, they were in the bottom two. You can check it out on YOUTUBE. Americans definitely made a mistake by sending them home as they are four good soloists too. If the world could vote, they would have become the winner for sure.

Revamp

What can i do with this old and unread blog???
I need to polish up everything maybe do some show or music reviews again??? Galaxie has revamped their magazines for years and i think i have to too.

Dreams off

I have a lot of dreams..oops had a lot of dreams...
I'm stuck here... Turning 20 this April but i still got beaten by mum. My family never understands me. It hurts when mum beat me =(
No more dream come true or what. I just wasted my STPM but i had the greatest time in MBS. No more university ....gonna work 4ever...