Katharine McPhee makes me cry

Terrified is a nice song by Katharine McPhee. A song that makes me think of something. Something can be good, bad, happy, sad.... to be continued

Camp fire

i ruined the camp fire , people will hate me...:(sorry guys

It's a waste of time, energy and money

Some people don't appreciate free thing. The stories all start here, I was not the original sixth form roster for the Games. I was asked to substitute Esther as she had a talent competition in K.L. So, I just accepted it. Everything went smooth until that Saturday. Around 50 people attended the orientation games ~ WTF!!! We expected more than 100 people, so everything had to be changed. The games, challenges......everything CHANGED

There was an id...............................
[STORIES CENSORED/CANCELLED/CONSTRICTED]

At the end, some people got changed and went home with prizes!!! The committee had to clean up the school area. Some things were not used that day, so we put it at a side. Although I was not the item incharge's person, I did bring a lot of balloons there because I knew something. I kept them in a pink plastic along with my dad's decoration stuff bcoz those things belonged to my dad. There were also beautiful ribbons, tapes, scissors...But I don't know which idiotic person threw that plastic away!!! He could see that as everything was new! It's not because of money or what, it's that I brought these things and it was not used, and it was wasted. ARGHHH.... It's such a waste of ....everything!

Ruined

i dunno why I keep thinking that I was the one messed up the whole games. I shouldn't have helped, but Esther is like a sister to me, a friend who really understands my feelings, that's why I helped her. It all went wrong, it was not what I expected, I just ruined everything that day.

scared

i 'm scared..day by day,he is gettin' stronger...he has more friends, people don't talk to me anymore. i'm worried, people are on his side, i did nothing wrong!!!! i'm trying to think something positive but I couldn't....

I’m disappointed in you—I really thought I could trust you!

I knew something was not right with us as your behavior has become really really strange. You suddenly told me "I'm happy with you in this class, you have got the spotlight, attention you 'd been wanting." I was surprised you said that but I took it as a compliment. But I didn't know you have already destroyed me. I don't want spotlight or any attention, I just want to make friends and be likable as they are really cool.

People humiliated me last time, so I will never do that to my friends. You have gone really really wrong about this, it's your attitude , you are grumpy.

You always think that I like humiliating you but after reading what you have insulted me,

I found that....
You are the real BITCH!!!

I’m disappointed in you—I really thought I could trust you=(

I won't win a game

If you want to stay, you better be quiet. That's the only way to survive in real game. Flattering them is another way to survive bcoz some people do that to save their lives but I will never do that.

I used to like perfection but every time I got perfection, people gossiped about me; saying that I was flattering which I never did at all. It sucked that you hard works turned into this unnecessary topic.

So take my words, If you want to stay, you better be quiet.
ps: I won't be discovered, This is my life

RIP Nike

I'm very sad , Nike is dead. My 13 years old dog died this morning. My uncle and I buried it under a tree near my house. But an idiot saw us doing that, he came and teased both of us. He is a completely cold-blooded idiot, he said he will report it to someone.

Nike, please protect us. I'm very scared now, really scared. Somebody please tell me a joke!

Listen

I'm worried, how people look at me, talk about me.... I don't deserve that, I have to tell the truth that I'm completely different now, I want nobody to know about me...fingers-crossed!
People, u need to listen to me!

HURT

Ok, I hurt myself yesterday, my knee is still pain. VERY PAIN!!! no gym for me!!!
I'm so sad, my trainer asked me to rest. I'm prayin' to get well !!!

I hurt myself

I fell down with my hand holding a can of coke. It was for Juanna. My knee is pain. I can't see the bruise yet but I'm worried, no gym for me this week. ARGHHH... i had missed so many training sessions in the past few weeks, now even worst!!! If I want to go tomorrow, I have to be extremely careful...it's so unlucky for me today!!!

Everyone has their stories

I really want to be their best or favorite friend. They are really nice in class. But, I started to worry if one day , somebody tells them something about me. The past has passed. Everyone has their stories. I hope they are still my friends if they know about me. I think I should talk to them. I love L6A2 . I still want to say that in my next blog.

Brothers and Sisters

Finally, I'm happy. I never felt happy in school, this is like the 1st time in my life I say happy about school. I'm currently in Methodist Boys' School as a sixth-former. Although it is just a month, I can imagine it. I love my new friends here. I hope they are still my friends when we are 30, 40, 50 years old.... I'm so happy to have them. It is so difficult to describe them, they are really good.
The boys are like my brothers and the girls are like my sisters. I am so thankful to God!

I'M SORRY, BABY

I beat it, I slapped it, kicked the cage to make it to be quiet bcoz I didn't want my mom to scold anyone. I'm sorry, puppy ! I took them home because I knew doggies like their size won't live happy in a messy resident area. So, I took them back home secretly. I got a scolding from my mother which I expected. I decided to give them to Nina bcoz I knew Nina and her sisters had been dying to have a dog in her home. So, I called her, told her everything bcoz these 2 puppies had to be gone asap. Unfortunately, Nina was not in Penang, she couldn't get both the puppies at that time. I had to keep them for a while. Days passed, my decision of giving both of them to Nina changed as I found out one of them likes to make noises and my uncle told me to sell it at least at a cheap price. Besides, I was very sure that Nina will return the noisy's one to me. So, I called her immediately to tell her everything. To make everything good for Nina, I observed and observed... it's the one, the one with the blue collar and not the one with no collar.... What a relief, it has a better home. I had given the one which is more obedient to Nina's family this afternoon, leaving the noisy one in the cage. It's really sad to separate them but my brain was blank... I couldn't do anything to help it... My uncle may sell it to a dog farm, it may die, may have a good family like Nina's. I have to send it away....No one would want a noisy dog...but until I saw it sleeping on the floor now....it looked quiet, charming - completely different....I feel sad to send it out from my home bcoz it's just a puppy....its life may change..... I totally can't imagine tomorrow....this is the dilemma i have everytime - to give/leave/sell a dog...I'm too worried of about their life although they are just animals....
I love you, puppy... may God finds you a nice home like Nina's:)

I'm curently listening to Lady Antebellum's American Honey.

I am Nothing

I'm furious! Seeing people enter their college's life next week and I am nothing now. I have a dream but it's not the time yet. Mr. Ken called me. My plans were perfectly done many years ago but something changed. Why do people like those idiots didn't get chosen for NS? My plan now is to learn something basic now and work to earn some money, I feel bad to be chosen for the NS. it 's ruined my life. I can't imagine going to that place. I hope it's not true, I'm trying to avoid that...I need to leave

Kinda miss my friends but.....it's done