I'M SORRY, BABY

I beat it, I slapped it, kicked the cage to make it to be quiet bcoz I didn't want my mom to scold anyone. I'm sorry, puppy ! I took them home because I knew doggies like their size won't live happy in a messy resident area. So, I took them back home secretly. I got a scolding from my mother which I expected. I decided to give them to Nina bcoz I knew Nina and her sisters had been dying to have a dog in her home. So, I called her, told her everything bcoz these 2 puppies had to be gone asap. Unfortunately, Nina was not in Penang, she couldn't get both the puppies at that time. I had to keep them for a while. Days passed, my decision of giving both of them to Nina changed as I found out one of them likes to make noises and my uncle told me to sell it at least at a cheap price. Besides, I was very sure that Nina will return the noisy's one to me. So, I called her immediately to tell her everything. To make everything good for Nina, I observed and observed... it's the one, the one with the blue collar and not the one with no collar.... What a relief, it has a better home. I had given the one which is more obedient to Nina's family this afternoon, leaving the noisy one in the cage. It's really sad to separate them but my brain was blank... I couldn't do anything to help it... My uncle may sell it to a dog farm, it may die, may have a good family like Nina's. I have to send it away....No one would want a noisy dog...but until I saw it sleeping on the floor now....it looked quiet, charming - completely different....I feel sad to send it out from my home bcoz it's just a puppy....its life may change..... I totally can't imagine tomorrow....this is the dilemma i have everytime - to give/leave/sell a dog...I'm too worried of about their life although they are just animals....
I love you, puppy... may God finds you a nice home like Nina's:)

I'm curently listening to Lady Antebellum's American Honey.

I am Nothing

I'm furious! Seeing people enter their college's life next week and I am nothing now. I have a dream but it's not the time yet. Mr. Ken called me. My plans were perfectly done many years ago but something changed. Why do people like those idiots didn't get chosen for NS? My plan now is to learn something basic now and work to earn some money, I feel bad to be chosen for the NS. it 's ruined my life. I can't imagine going to that place. I hope it's not true, I'm trying to avoid that...I need to leave

Kinda miss my friends but.....it's done